The Bell Jar

I haven't forgotten him
But ill push it down
The pain turns to emptiness
After a little while
My innocence
My need to make him proud is gone
Buried because

You've become my favorite distraction
Skinny broken model
This sadness runs so deep
That my feet can't reach the bottom (bum bum)
The bottom

I never understood the importance
Of an empty conversation
But my head gets so loud, it's all I want lately
And you, you're perfect, cause you'll never know me well
So I'll keep you around to avoid myself

You've become my favorite distraction
Skinny broken model
This sadness runs so deep
That my feet can't reach the bottom (bum bum)
You're a pill that I can swallow
This sadness runs so deep
That my feet can't reach the bottom

I'll never let someone in again
The way that I did him
Everything is safe if its not under my skin
Leave it to the past
To create present suffering
I can't still my mind without remembering