These Memories

Rip me apart, I want to feel
Tear me apart, so I can heal
Why can't I feel anything at all?
The pain, the shame
Nothing gets behind this wall
I feel myself drowning in this haze
Insane, I blame Me for apathetic ways
I ran away from what I feel
I never took the time to heal
The past two years won't let go of me
I'm face to face with these memories
Rip me apart, I want to feel
Tear me apart, so I can heal
I will sit with this pain inside
I'll learn to turn away from this broken mind
Ready to face this strain of mine
I'll burn down the past and leave it all behind
Drowning In an ocean of misery
Weighed down by the man I used to be
Oh God when will this change?
Sanity feels out of range
Overshadowed by the man I'm supposed to be
Nothing left to take away from me
These years, brought scars
I thought that time heals all?
I ran away from what I feel
I never took the time to heal
The past two years won't let go Of me
I'm face to face with these memories
I'm face to face with these memories
And now they're all staring back at me
I'm so damn low
Don't want to know
But now it seems it's starting to show
I'm face to face with my enemies
These demons lurking inside of me
Blow after blow
Why can't I let go
I AM THE WALKING DEAD
I've done my deed
This heart will bleed
Show me a pulse
A fucking sign of life
I ran away from what I feel
I never took the time to heal
The past two years won't let go of
I'm face to face with these memories
I'm face to face with these memories
And now they're all staring back at me
I'm so
Damn low
Don't want to know
But now it seems it's starting to show
I'm face to face with my enemies
These demons lurking inside
Blow after blow
Why can't I let go
These memories
Rip me apart, I want to feel
Tear me apart, so I can heal