Live Alone, Die Alone

Shit been gettin' difficult my life is at a standstill
I lost friends and so much time
That I wish I had still
I can't numb the pain
But maybe crazy loads of cash will
I can't numb the pain
But maybe money, clothes and cash will
I ain't trippin'
Listen, I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be
Working, writing verses is what really means the most to me
I'm a sad boy
I don't let nobody close to me
'Cuz first it's all love
Then eventually they're over me
Baby take the pain away
I just take it day to day
Ballin' 'till I fade away
DempseyRoll I paper chase
I'm trapped inside my brain
I hate this damn corrupted database
Man there's something wrong with me
It's throwing off my beta waves
Illest with the flows
Will I make it?
I don't know
But Imma give it all i got
This is what I chose
And lately I've been feelin at an all time low
All these people know my number but don't call my phone
Fuck em all
Fake snakes
I don't fuck with that
Mama told me from the jump: "Never trust a rat"
Live alone, die alone
Yeah, it's just a fact
I try hiding my emotions
But I suck at that
This is it
No more trippin'
I had too much second chances
I feel pressured
I feel pressed
With every second that passes
And how I ended up here
That shit is beyond me
Got to live with my decisions
You feel me
It's on me
I've been smoking every night
I got this money on my mind
Bitch I could've signed already
But I didn't, I declined
I ain't selling out my soul
I know that I'm one of a kind
And the things I think are crazy
That's some shit I can't describe
Shout out to my fucking team
I got my day ones by my side
Yeah it's us against the world
But we gon' make it, it's alright
Imma make sure we make millions
Even if I gotta die
I've been grinding way too long
I swear my dreams won't be denied
I said "fuck it, let's just run it, let's leave everything behind"
And I got no time for no bitch
I got no time to socialize
I got this tunnel vision
Listen, all I see is dollar signs
I ain't switching up for nothing
Pussy, that's a bottom line
DempseyRollBoy, I'm just sayin'
I can't let nobody take this
I can't take a deal
Baby, this' that everyday shit
I've been through it all
Now I can see through all that fake shit
Girl, my heart's already broken
Now noone can break it
Live alone, die alone
Grinding 'till my mind is blown
War ready soldier
I ain't scared to let them 9 explode
I already told ya
Imma go and get it on my own
Nobody could stop me
Just watch me, I'm reaching milestones
It's for all the times that people told me just to quit
It's for all the fucking nights when I was sleeping in my whip
This' for everyone that switched when I was down and jumped ship
Don't come running back asking for nothing when I'm dumb rich
I done been through so much bullshit that you can not comprehend
Anybody you see with me, that's my family not my friends
Imma get the last laugh
Bitch I'm driven by revenge
I've been havin' flashbacks to some tragic events
Ey, when I die don't send noone that knew me your condolences
Cause noone had my ba-back
When I had eviction notices
I'm overcoming struggles
I was broke
I'm still a broken kid that used to write me off
But now they know I write the coldest shit
It hurts when someone plays you
If you hate it
Then I hate you
Fuck, I do this for my fans
I spit the pain to relate to
I ain't scared to speak the truth
I'm sayin' facts I ain't afraid to
I'm the voice you need to hear
When there's noone to come and save you
Stayin' true to myself
Cus really that's all that I can be
I'm bettin' my life on this
I never had a plan b
Ya'll know what it is
You know I body every sad beat
That's 'cus I'm depressed
I wanna wake up from this bad dream
I've been feelin' sick
Cus of the things that i suppress
I've been holdin' all this in
I had to get it off my chest
Never felt like I belong
So that's why I disconnect
This is for my soul
This' the realest I could get