Enemy Number One

Seven minutes
'Til this is fucking over
Losing all feeling
Extremities are growing colder
My mind is weeping
Weeping for something greater
I'm breaking down, I think it's time to end this once and for all
I'm trying (trying)
But nothing (nothing)
Is working (working)
Never-ending criticism
That I impose on myself (on myself)
I'll never (never)
Be good enough (good enough)

Despite everything that I'm saying
I'd be lost without this feeling
It reminds me when I'm at my darkest
That I'm still alive
I'm alive, but only for tonight

I'm drowning (drowning)
Myself (in a)
Sea of (self-pity)
Apathy continues to swallow me whole (it swallows)
Filthy, I'm (hollow)
Guilty, I (wallow)

Always trying to find the answers
Despite my trying nothing matters
I am on a mission against myself
It makes me feel alive
I'm alive, but only for tonight

I'm alive, but just for tonight
Consider this my final goodbye

I am the enemy number one
I am dead