8 o’clock

[00:01.08] It's 8 o'clock in the morning
[00:03.35] I've been up all night just in my feelings
[00:07.10] I realize it's a lot of shit that I never really told nobody
[00:11.73] (Adelso on this)
[00:13.19] At all
[00:13.81] I done got up in my bag that's for shit sure
[00:16.26] How I got money and I still feel broke?
[00:17.85] Ever since my life changed, spirit been low
[00:19.67] I ain't got no place for real to call home
[00:21.52] I was just down out on my luck
[00:23.05] Got a girlfriend thought it'd make me feel better
[00:25.73] And it did but
[00:26.23] You can't replace the ones that you love
[00:27.85] That don't make you heal better
[00:29.31] But I swear that I love her
[00:31.21] Anything she ever needs she knows she can call me
[00:34.12] Gave her my word that she'd be mine so I'm just one call away
[00:38.32] And I know that she love me
[00:40.13] So for her I'd go to war with no army
[00:42.30] But I barely got heartbeat left
[00:43.89] I just wanna talk about my feelings (yeah)
[00:45.97] I'm make music, only place I can talk 'bout my feelings
[00:47.95] Otherwise I ain't tryna talk 'bout my feelings
[00:49.51] Say they love me, but they never gon get it
[00:51.64] They ain't ever wanna take no chances on me and I know it's my fault
[00:54.84] I just let everybody down all the time, yeah I know it's my fault
[00:58.56] Hate myself sometimes
[01:00.69] Like when the clock hit 4AM and I lay my head down
[01:04.08] But I can't sleep for nothing, nah nah
[01:05.81] My head just be spinning 'round
[01:07.79] Told the ones I love that I could achieve anything
[01:09.87] I wanna make 'em proud
[01:11.34] Make it out of my hometown, my hometown
[01:13.30] Got a lot of people that I call friends
[01:15.09] But I just don't know who really my friend
[01:17.13] Say they love me most of the time they pretend
[01:19.00] They not gon be here for me in the end
[01:20.56] Only got two people that I ever met that I trusted with my life really
[01:24.29] Life goes on, time changes everything
[01:26.17] Now it's only one left with me
[01:27.99] I put a smile on my face
[01:29.45] Act like that shit don't hurt me every day
[01:31.60] You not a season you wasn't supposed to just change
[01:33.72] Made me grow up, I know people change now
[01:35.59] And I miss playing on the playground with my little brother
[01:38.41] We would stay out
[01:39.22] That was back when times were simpler
[01:41.00] That was way before I got my feelings hurt
[01:42.94] That was way before they ever did me dirt
[01:44.85] Fuck it I'mma talk particulars
[01:46.61] Let me tell you about my ex best friend
[01:48.73] How she did me the worst
[01:50.63] I done grown up with somebody
[01:52.75] Fell in love with somebody
[01:54.03] Made promises with somebody
[01:56.16] Spent five years with somebody
[01:57.70] Same time, same time
[01:59.59] I was going up on my grind
[02:01.75] Used to wanna be a athlete
[02:03.38] Threw it all away for the rapping
[02:05.19] Only started rapping I was 13
[02:06.95] Threw my scholarships away at 16
[02:08.54] Right there, whole family disappointed
[02:10.64] And my momma wished she never had me
[02:12.54] 2021 was coming to a end, I was locked in
[02:15.44] I had just turned 18
[02:16.98] Numbers finally going up, said I got it
[02:19.05] Was finally about to hear my momma tell me that she proud
[02:21.41] Was 'bout to tell her that her oldest son made it out
[02:23.77] Had to work at Pizza Hut since September
[02:25.92] I could finally get up out of there
[02:28.03] Don't lose track of everything I said
[02:29.85] Remember this about my ex best friend
[02:31.77] Really she my ex girlfriend too
[02:33.67] New Year's came around, we had drunk sex
[02:35.29] Everything was going smooth, the best
[02:37.09] At the time I ain't know that was just my end
[02:39.02] Remember that while I get back into it
[02:40.83] Let me tell you all about the music
[02:42.78] I had just hit my first 100K on a song on Spotify
[02:45.99] Speaking of 100K's, I was doing 100K Tiktoks every night
[02:49.50] Everything was going up, everything was looking up, fans loved me
[02:53.21] But I didn't know the one I loved most no longer really loved me
[02:56.97] Shorty stuck it out through January
[02:58.84] Then come the first week of February
[03:00.66] I went to LA for the first time
[03:02.73] I done really got my shine right
[03:04.95] Left my trip early, came back home, I was missing my baby
[03:08.36] Seen her one time, maybe two times, then the shit turned crazy
[03:11.78] Woke up one day
[03:13.07] Got a text, said she wanna talk to me
[03:14.87] Told her she could come through to my place
[03:16.77] Shorty pulled up with a frown on her face
[03:18.67] I said "Is everything okay?"
[03:20.23] She told me that "Nah this shit ain't okay"
[03:22.31] I'm like "Ok what you tryna say?"
[03:24.25] Then she told me that she want a break
[03:26.05] "Break for me?"
[03:27.79] "Break for me, shorty are you dumb?"
[03:30.05] "We just had our 5 year anniversary, said that you in love"
[03:33.90] "What about that?"
[03:35.33] Tears coming down both our face now
[03:37.59] The world can take anything from me, just don't take my bae now please
[03:43.63] The world ain't answer my prayers
[03:45.29] Hit her phone up a couple days later, the person I knew wasn't there
[03:48.96] She already started changing
[03:51.13] She done turned so cold
[03:53.27] Then I broke down on the ground screaming "Why the world so cold?"
[03:56.38] I said "Can the break be over now? I miss you"
[03:59.86] "Promise bae that I love you, never meant to make you feel misused"
[04:03.57] She finally wrote me back
[04:05.16] Said that she busy or whatever
[04:06.96] But we not getting back together
[04:08.57] She said that she moving on for the better
[04:10.72] Sick as fuck, sick as fuck
[04:12.10] I was just way too young to go through that shit
[04:14.43] Took me eight weeks to eat some fucking food
[04:16.25] Swear to God that shit was so tragic
[04:18.14] I wasn't eating, wasn't sleeping
[04:19.28] Traumatized me, you wouldn't understand it
[04:21.33] That's unless you was me and you went through the same shit
[04:23.13] Felt so alone like no one went through the same shit as me
[04:26.44] I was on her line, "Sophia please"
[04:28.20] Crying every morning, afternoon and night
[04:30.38] And I couldn't even fucking breathe
[04:32.18] So I got to a point, didn't give a fuck about life
[04:34.53] Swear I wanted to just die
[04:36.14] Almost did it to myself twice
[04:37.93] Now you know for the first time, first time
[04:41.61] Tell me how you go from loving somebody
[04:43.49] To tryna act like they just nobody
[04:45.31] When you used to put them over everybody
[04:47.13] That shit changed my whole view of the world
[04:48.98] This shit go way deeper than girls
[04:50.86] My heart thought that I had her loyalty
[04:53.03] Gave her all the power to just foil me
[04:55.12] I was that nigga for a minute for real
[04:56.79] Got the numbers up, we was talking in the mills
[04:58.59] Got the numbers up, almost had a career
[05:00.11] Then she did me dirt, she said fuck that play
[05:02.03] We can skip three months, it ain't much to say
[05:03.86] Now we talking 'bout the end of May
[05:05.46] Still wishing for some better days
[05:07.09] Wasn't no better days
[05:08.02] That was hell for me
[05:09.49] Couldn't elevate
[05:10.79] I remembered my fans, but they was all gone now
[05:14.17] Surely
[05:15.14] Ain't give a fuck, I still tried to reach out
[05:17.53] Hurting
[05:18.64] Had to remember what mattered in detail
[05:20.78] I can't end my life about a female
[05:22.56] Tried to make the comeback, said I mean well, yeah
[05:25.09] To the fans that stayed, who believe in me
[05:26.88] That's the realest shit I ever seen
[05:28.74] To the kid that got a tattoo of my name, you done made a better me
[05:32.47] Summer '22 I got verified, almost signed a deal
[05:35.00] But the label past on me, so I gassed on 'em
[05:37.18] I ain't gon collect no bad karma
[05:39.09] Most of the time I feel like the man
[05:40.61] Tonight I remember that I ain't shit really
[05:42.78] My head still fucked up
[05:44.30] And I ain't do all the shit they think I did really
[05:46.46] My ex tried to knock me down
[05:48.35] She almost did it, I admit it
[05:50.15] Took a while but I punched through it, sidestepping
[05:52.27] So one day I'll say that I did it, yeah
[05:54.68] I ain't gon lie
[05:56.94] What got me in my feelings tonight was the realization that
[06:00.47] I'm not as bright of a person as I used to be before all this shit
[06:04.88] You know?
[06:06.49] Feel like I lost all my innocence in a way
[06:09.83] I really had to grow up, just, just to stay alive
[06:12.43] But I never meant to turn my back on anyone
[06:15.48] If I did, I'm sorry
[06:17.77] This one was for my fans
[06:20.42] To the realest, from the realest
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