Internal Arson

I fear desire and its warm embrace
Some might call me a liar, but I prefer a saint
And like the shadows, I stay away from the light
No matter where I go, Im haunted by the darkness in my life

I can't go back, because I'll never want to leave
The fire between the cracks will burn me to my knees
The sky goes black and the forest reveals my pain
All hope is turned to ash from the trees now wreathed in flame

How could I be guilty of giving in to lust?
Does instinct betray me now, with nowhere left to place my trust?
Satisfy my alibi, and say what needs to be said
Just enough to sell the lie, long before I almost end up dead

My words have drown me, choking on my lies
The laughter that disguised me has now turned into cries
Im wandering lost now, astray without a home
Never to be found, I truly am alone