Goodbye

Tryna rise out the dirt
I can feel it taking over
The more we get older
Don't think that it gets any worse
Heart is only growing colder
I wish that I told her
I'm not who they fuckin' deserve
Leaving me the cold shoulder
As if they had no promise
That I'd find a cure
Then I'm finding her for some closure
I don't wanna leave you helpless
Made some promises I couldn't keep
Figured out I'm selfish
The more we move the more we're digging deep
The world around is hellish
I don't think I have to be the one to spell it
I was never one for being over jealous
'Cause we're used to others who try to repel us
So l'll go and tell them

Take a look at me
Do I look like I'm the one
That you can trust
I take a look at you
I really think that your the one
I'd give my life

I'm not afraid to die
I know you never had a home
So I promise It's your hand I'll hold
So you save your life
Just know you're safe
You're not alone
So no matter how far you go
We won't say goodbye

I really wish I meant it
Really wish that everything I tried to tell them
Didn't come out so condescending
Really wish I had the strength of keeping all the angst
Instead of always just pretending
Really wish I was the type of person
Who could just achieve a fuckin' happy ending
Let's see my purpose and the fog is pending
And it's never me that I care for defending
Wonder why I haven't been ascending
When I barely care about what's even trending
Time with you is always worth spending
Even if I felt a little unrelenting
'Till I got you and we start befriending
Was'nt even what I was intending
Take it in, just look how far we made it
When you talk to me though it feels so automated
Truth is I don't feel too obligated
Really I'm just seeking out some consolation
Know that that Imma give my confirmation
I can barely hold a single conversation
Hard forgetting all I got is hatred
You and I fuckin' complicated
Wish that I could leave it in the past
That too much to ask
I need warnings
Wanna give a single laugh
Took off the mask
But the truth is that I'm just boring
With little motivation every morning
And these emotions I don't keep ignoring
I couldn't fuckin' care about my story
I just wanna tell you that I'm so sorry
So

Take a look at me
Do I look like I'm the one
That you can trust
I take a look at you
I really think that your the one
I'd give my life

I'm not afraid to die
I know you never had a home
So I promise It's your hand I'll hold
So you save your life
Just know you're safe
You're not alone
So no matter how far you go
We won't say goodbye
We won't say goodbye