Euphoria / Dysphoria

Writhing in my despair
I'll bend and break
Drowning in my regret
How much more can I take?

I guess I should hate myself
For all that I have become
I guess I should hate myself
Why don't I just hate myself?

I'm circumventing through circumstances
Of the joy that you have taken
Unrelenting of the fickle chances
To find myself again

I guess I should hate myself
For all that I have become
I guess I should hate myself
Why don't I just fuck myself?
I guess I should hate myself
For what I've become

I guess I'm the only one to blame!

I know I've been waiting for the sun to shine on dark days
On dark days
I know we must suffer before we make it all right
It's alright

This rage that builds inside of me
It's scathing, I'm shaking
I feel the walls, they're caving in
I drowned my innocence to never fucking feel again
I never thought I would be just another sadistic
It's sadistic, I'm just another statistic
It's so sadistic

Time
Time for us to feel
Don't waste your time on me
I'm already dead on the inside
Don't waste your time on me
I'm already dead on the inside
Don't waste your time on me
I'm already dead on the inside!

(I guess I should hate myself)
(For what I have just become)
(Why don't I just hate myself?)
(Why don't I just kill myself?)