storyboard for a pessimist

I can't fall asleep because I heard the things you said last week
And no, I don't wanna text back, because there's never any use in that
I wanna touch the sky but I've got
ties upon my wrist that grip so tight
Please help me reach out from the pitch black
Fuck, I miss having a clear head
You're not meant for me, I'm not meant for you
But I'm hoping that I'm better than your next dude
And I don't care if that upsets you
'Cause now I can see all you do is use
So I'm taking back the songs I wrote about you
I really wish I never met you
I've been lying to my friеnds to get them off of my back
I know they mеan well, but I don't want to hear that
I'm just a cynical piece of shit
A storyboard for a pessimist
And I don't get why you pretend that everyone
you know is like you're biggest fucking friend
'Cause I can count on two hands all the times you hate on them
But then you send them heart emojis into their DMs
You're not meant for me, I'm not meant for you
But I'm hoping that I'm better than your next dude
And I don't care if that upsets you
'Cause now I can see all you do is use
So I'm taking back the songs I wrote about you
I really wish I never met you
Guess I'm back where I belong
Left here scrolling through my phone
Lock me up 'cause there's no solace in my headspace now at all
Guess I'm back where I belong
Push me right into a hole
Filled with concrete 'cause I never want to see your face at all