It Feels Like

It feels like
The weight of the world on me
It feels like
I'm trapped where I don't want to be
It feels like
I'm regrettin' just where I've been
It feels like

Another day goes dripping away
With the same feel of hate and disdain
For another blame
That you dropped on your back
Like a silent attack to everything
That you're feeling you lack
And the people around you fall in
And call in to make sure you haven't fallen
Every day is a constant relay
Of everyone in your life in your face
Saying "Are you okay?"

No, I'm not fine
Every second is a record of why
I live my life never doin' things right
And though I try
The pain stays the same
And again I find myself just ashamed
Of my own name

I look into the mirror and fear
That what I see is the cause
Of another shit year
I hear that all the people think I'm livin' like a star
But life ain't easy when you hate who you are

Now the darkness comes to take me away again

It feels like
The weight of the world on me
It feels like
I'm trapped where I don't want to be
It feels like
I'm regrettin' just where I've been
It feels like
I'm drowning inside again

Hard to say who I really am
I've got closet full of thoughts
That you wouldn't understand
Got an honest problem
In that even though I try
It all gets simple when I act like I'm fine
So I smile and laugh
Like I'm attackin' every fact
That I can't hold back anymore
'Cause I'm sure that if it bores
Any deeper inside I might find
That the light disappeared
And it's leaving me blind

It's not okay
No person should be livin' this way
Questioning everything that they say
And wondering if the people really knew
If they'd choose to see how hard it is
To fight what you're fightin' through

I need help
I'm sick and I know it
And I've gotten really good at
Making sure I don't show it
And when people see me
They feel happy
And all I've ever wanted was to be
The man they want me to be

Now the darkness comes to take me away again

It feels like
The weight of the world on me
It feels like
I'm trapped where I don't want to be
It feels like
I'm regrettin' just where I've been
It feels like
I'm drowning inside again

Now I know
There's something wrong with me
Happiness
Only appears in dreams

Smile out and
Bury it back inside
It's easier to hide

It feels like
It feels like
It feels like
It feels like
Drowning inside again

It feels like
The weight of the world on me
It feels like
I'm trapped where I don't want to be
It feels like
I'm regrettin' just where I've been
It feels like
I'm drowning inside again

It feels like
There isn't anything that's real
It feels like
I've got a wound that will never heal
It feels like
I'm regrettin' just where I've been
It feels like
I'm drowning inside again