What I've Become
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โฑ๏ธ 2:33 duration
๐ ID: 10276131
๐ Lyrics
I used to punish myself for existing
Thought friends were waiting on the day I went missing
I pushed them back with my thoughts
Convinced that I was hated
I just reaped what i sought
Imagined anger in jokes
So every time they poked
I shot back unprovoked
It's not the way that I am
But that's what self hatred can do to a man
Let alone a man who doesn't wanna be one
Let alone a kid who thinks their life lacks reason
Let alone a loner losing all his day ones
Every day I wake up
And rue what I have become
Thought friends were waiting on the day I went missing
I pushed them back with my thoughts
Convinced that I was hated
I just reaped what i sought
Imagined anger in jokes
So every time they poked
I shot back unprovoked
It's not the way that I am
But that's what self hatred can do to a man
Let alone a man who doesn't wanna be one
Let alone a kid who thinks their life lacks reason
Let alone a loner losing all his day ones
Every day I wake up
And rue what I have become
โฑ๏ธ Synced Lyrics
[00:21.78] I used to punish myself for existing
[00:26.79] Thought friends were waiting on the day I went missing
[00:31.77] I pushed them back with my thoughts
[00:34.90] Convinced that I was hated
[00:37.23] I just reaped what i sought
[00:42.01] Imagined anger in jokes
[00:45.11] So every time they poked
[00:47.38] I shot back unprovoked
[00:52.00] It's not the way that I am
[00:55.25] But that's what self hatred can do to a man
[01:01.25] Let alone a man who doesn't wanna be one
[01:06.25] Let alone a kid who thinks their life lacks reason
[01:11.26] Let alone a loner losing all his day ones
[01:15.88] Every day I wake up
[01:18.02] And rue what I have become
[01:27.02]
[00:26.79] Thought friends were waiting on the day I went missing
[00:31.77] I pushed them back with my thoughts
[00:34.90] Convinced that I was hated
[00:37.23] I just reaped what i sought
[00:42.01] Imagined anger in jokes
[00:45.11] So every time they poked
[00:47.38] I shot back unprovoked
[00:52.00] It's not the way that I am
[00:55.25] But that's what self hatred can do to a man
[01:01.25] Let alone a man who doesn't wanna be one
[01:06.25] Let alone a kid who thinks their life lacks reason
[01:11.26] Let alone a loner losing all his day ones
[01:15.88] Every day I wake up
[01:18.02] And rue what I have become
[01:27.02]