Ache

I don't stand straight
I don't talk properly
I dribble on my words
And people can't hear what I say
I'm too skinny
You can see my ribs and it's disgusting
I'm not confident enough, I wish I was though
'Cause I got comfortable in the role of the awkward boy
But then it all shattered
Every move I make I notice
I'm so self aware that it sometimes scares me
People think I'm weird
I'm not really though
I just get comfortable and then I'm the peculiar one
I don't do things, I'm too scared
I'm too scared to live
I'm too much of a coward to die
I'm too much of a coward to do it
I'm too much of a coward to jump
And I'm too much of a coward to pull it
I'm too much of a coward to take that pill
I wanna fucking kill myself
But I'm too scared (I fucking hate myself for it)
I fucking hate myself for it
I wanna kill myself
I wanna die
I wanna just fuck off
I wanna just kill everybody else on this
I don't wanna live anymore
I don't wanna be in this fucking nightmare
That some people call a fucking life
I hate it here
I'm a fucking loser
I'm a fucking
Fuck- fuck
I just wanna fuck off
I don't wanna live anymore
I wanna fucking die
But I'm too much of a fucking coward to actually fucking die