These Drugs

[00:10.83] I don't wanna do drugs anymore
[00:12.66] If you saw me through the eyes of a bathroom stall
[00:15.15] Your skin would crawl, I'm high
[00:17.46] But I am not a sycophant for a good time
[00:20.10] I only wanted to escape my mind
[00:23.87] For one night, know what happiness feels like
[00:26.50] But the nightmare I'm ignoring
[00:27.90] Is darker in the morning
[00:29.56] It's a band-aid on a broken arm
[00:34.48] A siren sounding out alarm
[00:36.87] A fucked-up version of self-harm
[00:41.12] And it's louder than a cry for help
[00:45.03] When I destroy my mental health
[00:48.17] Because I don't respect myself
[00:51.97] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[00:59.04] All I ever do is cry
[01:02.46] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[01:09.91] All I ever do is cry
[01:14.56] I don't wanna go to bed all alone
[01:17.98] So I let another stranger take me home
[01:19.97] I drink to numb the pain
[01:22.15] And you would do it too if you would share my brain
[01:25.54] Everybody that I love gets hurt
[01:26.84] And I'm learning to believe that I just deserve
[01:30.30] The demons I'm ignoring
[01:32.88] And the regret in the morning
[01:34.65] It's a fucking domino effect
[01:39.19] A prison cell inside my head
[01:41.63] A trauma that I can't forget
[01:45.48] And it's louder than a cry for help
[01:48.92] When I destroy my mental health
[01:51.07] Because I fucking hate myself
[01:56.55] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[02:04.37] All I ever do is cry
[02:06.92] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[02:13.65] All I ever do is
[02:17.64] Cry, cry
[02:21.02] I only ever
[02:23.15] Cry, cry
[02:25.81] I only ever
[02:28.21] Cry, cry
[02:30.41] I only ever
[02:33.22] Cry, cry
[02:36.33] I only ever
[02:38.49] Damned if I do and bored if I don't
[02:41.29] And I should get clean again but I won't
[02:43.28] I told you that I don't need help
[02:44.86] Because I lie to myself
[02:48.00] Damned if I do and bored if I don't
[02:50.93] And I should get clean again but I won't
[02:52.65] I wanna be someone else
[02:56.06] Because I'm scared of myself
[03:01.29] Sometimes I'm scared of myself
[03:08.79] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[03:16.11] All I ever do is cry
[03:18.19] Every time I take these drugs to pick me up
[03:26.97] All I ever do is
[03:30.24] Cry, cry
[03:32.90] I only ever
[03:35.19] Cry, cry
[03:37.93] I only ever
[03:40.01] Cry, cry
[03:42.96] I only ever
[03:44.59] Cry, cry
[03:48.37] I only ever cry
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