The Saddest Sound Was You

another phone call
another life lost to the monster I've become
I try to break apart from myself
I try to believe there is a better part of me
the half that used to do these things
tries so desperately to die
I want to let it die
will you let it die
and pretend that I have changed

another phone call
another chance to prove I'll never kill again
this has to be worth something
can't a man like me hope to find redemption in the end

I walk on water
always staring at the holes nailed through my feet
I know I'm sinking
I always knew these wounds would be my ending

I don't have any strange delusions
I won't receive what I deserve
I know the past is close behind me
but please believe me that I tried

Please believe me that I tried
I want to let it die
Please believe me that I tried
Will you let it die
And pretend that I have changed