Ataraxis

I've grappled with quiet
Sought tranquility
Cut off my own air supply so I couldn't breathe
Peace was a valuable friend that never stayed very long
I rarely ever opened up
So adrift I didn't belong

Out of everyone I've known
You wouldn't leave me on my own
The only light that shown
You fought to make me whole

Ataraxis beckoned me
I desired not to feel
Even for a second
I went beyond numbing it
You tried to carve a smile
You tried to force a laugh
When I was torn and vacant
You kept coming back

Out of everyone I've known
You wouldn't leave me on my own
The only light that shown
You fought to make me whole

Ataraxis beckoned and mocked me
Turned its back and left me there
Ataraxis beckoned and mocked me
I felt it everywhere

Out of everyone I've known
You wouldn't leave me on my own
You were the only light that shown
Reviving flesh from stone
Never on my own
You fought to make me whole