Dancing on a Tightrope

Dancing on a tightrope
I don't really know why though
That's the last time I'll have high hopes
At least I'll fall in style

Because I don't-
I don't have a while, at all
Before I tire
Of dancing on this tightrope
And now I know
I won't know how to smile
When I've walked several miles
Across this tightrope

It's all a lie
It's all a lie
It's all a lie you tell yourself
But so don't I
Yea, so don't I
Believe the lies I tell myself

Back and forth with backwards dreaming
Sad and hurt these last four seasons
I said it's worth it but I don't believe it
"It takes hard work," I said to grant reason
Last report I said I'm bleeding
That's when you ignored me for a weekend
Moved me from the floor and to the peak
When your only plan was to jump and leave me-

Balancing above the deepest end
Back and forth I'm leaning again
I'm high, appalled, and fucking freezing
Let me fall or I'll keep dancing