I Aint Tellin’

Tick tock on the clock
Made me stop, watch
There she goes, flowing like linen
For all my unanswered prayers
Lord you're forgiven
This one makes up for the previous delays
Don't tease me with would be's, this time she stays
And if this won't be, or turns into a hauntin
Memory, bless me with forgetting
Have fate make me see her again
I'd be caged up, enraged up, need to be freed again
My words are binding, tell me, how did you find me?
Funny how I see so much through beauty that is blinding
You showed up late but would you stay a while?
Only answer that if a while lasts forever. Cuz I can never
Imagine, nor would I ever want to fathom the best love I have
I think about 'once having'.
The what ifs are what will, the if onlys only kills
Time till this happens, to my pain You are the pill
Home isn’t where you are but who you’re with
If that's the case should you leave, its going to leave me homeless
I crawl at the thought, a crawl you turn into a walk
A leap of faith follows, you shine through my dark
The doubts that we had within ourselves
And who we may have had besides ourselves
We walked a broken road, our shoulders feeling load
So f**k the world because we owe this to ourselves
So why the hold up, when im so happy in this place?
"I'm-Perfect" is what I am, if you negate the space
Between the first two words, yet you made me your world
I'm worried I'd destroy it, watch my fears unfurl
You're riding shotgun in my mind, yet you're driving
Me crazy, running through my mind yet its me thats pacing
Maybe im afraid to fail you, can't cause that pain
You place your life in my shaking hands, you're made of porcelain
I'm confident you're my confidante
But im unsure about mixing your light with my impure
Ways, so here I stay in limbo or purgatory
I'm every party in the court room, you be the jury
Decide my fate, this run around may kill me
Loving with you with all the cards stacked against me? guilty
I need to talk less but say more, I need love
Yet here I stand over thinking, not feeling enough