DYSMORPHIA

[00:07.84] Can't even think of the times I sat back to relax
[00:10.18] I don't think I got a time for all that
[00:11.44] Cus I'm mad, and I'm stuck in the past
[00:12.91] I try to ask, myself will I ever be better
[00:14.87] It goes black
[00:15.52] Just a black hole
[00:16.12] Sucking away at all of my livelihood
[00:17.94] What's the evil put in my body, shook, as I'm laying awake
[00:20.76] I feel em watching, should I end my life would you stop me?
[00:23.57] Same old patterns, none of this matters
[00:25.59] Know you would rather, see my heart shattered
[00:27.58] Bones all scattered the pieces are gathered
[00:29.32] The beast getting captured a breathing disaster
[00:31.42] I'm so depressed I don't know to deal with it
[00:33.38] Still with it, look at myself in bewilderment
[00:35.38] Bloodthirsty urges are turning me villainous
[00:39.45]
[00:57.40] Cus I be going crazy as ever
[01:12.30] They wanna do what I be doing but they put in no effort
[01:14.46] And honestly it coming natural it wasn't a method
[01:16.34] I only took what I was given and I chose to perfect it
[01:18.36] To be honest sometimes ion even feel a thing
[01:20.32] Except for when I get drained, from dealing with all the pain
[01:22.65] One thing good I no longer fear change
[01:25.05] Maybe still I will never be okay
[01:26.28] Stress is inside of me building up slowly
[01:28.47] People around me but none of them know me
[01:30.36] Shackled by my own desire wanna go free
[01:32.37] Look in my eyes and you better look closely
[01:34.36] This for them nights I had no one to hold me
[01:36.32] That's every night fam I won't even hold you
[01:38.21] Going so fast I had nowhere to go to
[01:40.25] You take a walk in these shoes it'll fold you
[01:42.64] Can't rest, I'm awake and this pain my creation
[01:46.78] I bathe in this hatred T
[01:48.65] Too much, I can't take this
[01:50.59] Don't hate if I change cus I'm tired of escaping
[01:54.52] I'm making my fate cus this time ima face it
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