Funeral

I'm singing at a funeral tomorrow
For a kid a year older than me
And I've been talking to his dad
It makes me so sad
When I think to much about it i can't breathe
And I have this dream
Where I'm screaming under water
While my friends are all waving from the shore
And I don't need
You to tell me what that means
I don't believe in that shit anymore
Jesus Christ, I'm so blue all the time
And that's just how I feel
Always have and I always will
I always have and I always will
I have this friend I call
When I've bored myself to tears
And we talk until we think we might just kill ourselves
But then we laugh until it disappears
And last night I blacked out in my car
And I woke up in my childhood bed
Wishing I was someone else
Feeling sorry for myself
Then I remembered someones kid is dead
Jesus Christ, I'm so blue all the time
And that's just how I feel
Always have and I always will
I always have and I always will
And it's 4 A.M.
Again
And I'm doing nothing
Again
I'm doing nothing
I'm doing nothing