There's a Mountain of Words I Can't Find

Hope that you're honest
Feel like I lie all the time
It's sort of the problem
But I'm on it

Feel like a loser
I don't know what I'm doing
But I'm trying
Are you thriving

Are you full of self worth
If i make you angry I'm just a curse

There's a mountain of words I can't find
When you tell me everything's fine