Eulogy

[00:00.10] When I-when I-when I-when I- (You did good, $lick)
[00:02.82] When I die, fuck it, I wanna go to hell
[00:05.80] When I-when I-when I-when I-
[00:08.80] When I die, fuck it, I wanna go to hell
[00:12.23] When I-when I-when I-when I- When I die
[00:15.82] 3 AM drinking with this pistol on my lap
[00:18.76] Six medications, guess there ain't no fixing that
[00:21.59] It's that broken motherfucker, knuckling until I relapse
[00:24.69] If I die they might cry until they inherit my stacks, uh
[00:28.45] Cold fucking world, tell me what's the word
[00:31.20] Only time I speak my heart is when the message come out slurred
[00:34.46] People pleasing always eager to fix a motherfucker's problems
[00:37.74] Leave me at the bottom, all comfortable with Gomorrah Sodom
[00:41.27] I chew on fent and rot my teeth off
[00:44.38] Moments of peace and slow heart beats, God offered
[00:47.50] God I dissed, who gon save me?
[00:50.35] All I can do is laugh and say "C'est la vie"
[00:53.18] Uh, yeah, woe was me, I know you get the picture
[00:57.44] This type of pain will earn you seven figures
[01:00.25] Check my DNA, my RNA come with predictors
[01:03.40] This shit is scripture and for what I got, there's no elixirs
[01:07.23] Feel like I'm not enough, find myself playing my day
[01:10.89] Like Honey Boy and Shia LaBeouf
[01:13.49] My momma crying as she watch the clock
[01:15.60] Text my bro I love him even though he got my number blocked
[01:19.55] I would give up everything to see my brothers clean
[01:22.19] No second thoughts, it's fuck the cost or take me, leave 'em be
[01:25.39] Take my money, say you love me even if it's lies
[01:28.49] That connection so depressing but it's all I got
[01:32.38] When I die just play this fucking song
[01:34.54] I was never meant for this, been tortured just to carry on
[01:38.03] Couple coupes, lotta zeros and a couple homes, none of it is shit to me
[01:42.18] Cock the pistol and now I'm
[01:46.50] Ayy, head in the clouds it look like it might rain again
[01:50.03] Always holding back tears, it's how I manage to pay the rent
[01:53.14] Pay the bills, place the bets so I don't have to chase the check
[01:56.20] Verified through suicide, the glitz and glamor came and went
[02:00.18] Wash my fucking soul, there's still that one stain is kept
[02:03.52] I just wanna be loved, the root of all my pain
[02:05.68] Except the type that comes with age and death
[02:07.98] I can finally lay and rest, I'm owed a lil' peace
[02:10.48] And I'm ready to erase the debt
[02:12.39] I never planned on showing the world the face that hides behind the mask
[02:15.43] I always thought the last thing I would hear would be the guns blast
[02:18.68] Fill in the black hole in my chest with sex and drugs
[02:21.36] But it never lasts, it never lasts
[02:24.22] Shit, 2 years ago Big Pharma should have just cashed me out
[02:27.94] Now I got a deviated septum, I'mma just wrap me out
[02:31.12] Pat me down, ask me how I'm still depressed, all they see is my set
[02:35.47] All they see is lack of debt, all they see is what they wanna see
[02:38.93] Calling me a wannabe, I don't wanna be in misery except a pharmacy
[02:43.47] Tell that girl I wanna see, I wanna see her heart bleed
[02:47.12] When she rips out my fucking heart, enter the pharmacy
[02:50.74] I'm a private person and take pride in my verses
[02:53.55] Fuck your whole opinion, I don't care if it worsens
[02:56.74] I'll ruin my reputation and make sure it's on purpose
[03:01.03] Fuck this shit
[03:04.52] When I die, just play this fucking song
[03:06.34] I was never meant for this, been tortured just to carry on
[03:09.44] Couple coupes, lotta zeros and a couple homes, none of it is shit for me
[03:13.74] Cock the pistol and now I'm gone
[03:15.35] When I die, fuck it, I wanna go to hell
[03:18.53] When I-when I-when I-when I-
[03:21.57] When I die, fuck it, I wanna go to hell
[03:24.47] When I-when I-when I-when I-when I die
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