My First Apartment

[00:11.65] Can we talk about
[00:14.06] The grief I feel in my first spot
[00:17.12] That no one ever talks about
[00:19.89] Finally made it out my mamas house
[00:23.43] And when the lights go down
[00:25.95] I admit that it feels kinda free
[00:29.64] On my own
[00:30.88] But there's so much that I don't understand
[00:35.13] Dancing in my living room all night
[00:38.02] With Sade playing in my slides
[00:41.04] Kinda wanna laugh wanna cry
[00:44.00] Kinda wanna live wanna die
[00:47.28] Kinda wanna hold me in the midnight
[00:50.27] Dry all of my tears from when I was a child
[00:53.22] Kinda wanna understand
[00:56.23] What it takes to be who I am
[00:59.22] Maybe I'll crash
[01:00.51] Maybe I'll burn
[01:02.29] Maybe I'll live
[01:03.51] Maybe I'll learn
[01:05.23] I think I'll understand
[01:08.37] What it takes to be who I am
[01:12.05] I dont wanna live past eighty
[01:14.92] Regretting all the things I didn't say
[01:17.83] And I refuse to live and let it past me by
[01:20.88] I rather live life in real time
[01:23.99] I might make breakfast at midnight
[01:26.90] Sometimes I sit in my living room and cry
[01:29.73] Cause I don't know why I feel everything
[01:34.96] Dancing in my living room all night
[01:38.06] With Sade playing in my slides
[01:41.09] Kinda wanna laugh wanna cry
[01:44.02] Kinda wanna live wanna die
[01:47.28] Kinda wanna hold me in the midnight
[01:50.28] Dry all of my tears from when I was a child
[01:53.26] Kinda wanna understand
[01:56.13] What it takes to be who I am
[01:59.13] Maybe I'll crash
[02:00.54] Maybe I'll burn
[02:02.27] Maybe I'll live
[02:03.55] Maybe I'll learn
[02:05.29] I think I'll understand
[02:08.28] What it takes to be who I am
[02:10.83] I'm grown
[02:11.36] I'm grown
[02:11.90] I'm grown
[02:14.28] Yes I am grown
[02:15.49] I'm grown
[02:16.11] I'm grown
[02:16.97] I'm grown
[02:17.30] Yes I am grown
[02:18.05] I'm grown
[02:18.84] I'm grown
[02:19.46] I'm grown
[02:20.27] Yes I am grown
[02:20.68] I'm grown
[02:21.44] I'm grown
[02:22.17] I'm grown
[02:23.68] Thank God
[02:26.58] I'm grown
[02:27.43] I'm grown
[02:28.23] Thank God
[02:29.58] I feel whole
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