You Got Me So Fucked Up

Yeah I feel like im stuck in a crowd of NPCs
Yeah I cant hold up a conversation
I think I know the one who lost is me
Yeah I know that you're losing patience

You love to fuck me up you know it's free
Yeah you know that im not worth saving
Yeah these thoughts, they pressure me to jump and leave
When I fall will you just laugh and film it

Im looking back at you with those perfect eyes
Cus every time I see you a little part of me dies
Cus im fucked up, bad luck, lost to the bad drugs
Im giving in easily immediately using

It's a shame that the light inside is just a bit dim
Not working like it used to
Abused through used through
Barley landed on my feet most times I wish I never made it out alive

All get is the dial tone when I call you
All I get was never enough when I fall through
Take it or leave it I am what I am
Yeah im worthless, disgusting you say its just all in my head

Yeah sick demented fuck, I wanna run away from my problems
I can't just stop them, I put my feet down in a waste of yesterday
Fractals of dust just get in my vision I can't make decisions
Of weather, I wanna leave or just stay still

Cus I don't feel like ill catch up
So ill just stay here lost in a hospital of souls
Push me down and ill lose control