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I'm conflicted, I can't make shit
I don't feel the love I fake it
Got this feeling, I can't shake it
Got this feeling, I might break shit

I'm losing fucking patience
I'm finna be a patient
I got drugs all this room
And I been trying not to take it

But I can't hold on, I been doing that for fucking so long
I'm so done, I can't open up for fucking no one
I been trying, it ain't working
And I know nobody perfect
I know you don't see the anger
But I'm not a peaceful person

All that I wanted to do was be in love with you
But I fucked up like I always do
And I can't figure it out, I'm bouta start flipping out
Let me rot all alone in a forest

Fucking up everything, yeah I'm for it
If she call me again, I'll ignore it
Got a lot of the pain where my core is
I got too much shit to say that's why I don't do chorus

It's a never ending cycle
I should not be anybody's idol
I make music singing bout the fucked up shit
That I went through and about the shit that I did

Back to sounding fucking angry at the world and at myself
If you can't find me when you die, then you did not get sent to hell
Everything's a fucking lie and everybody's up for sale
Success is not what you would think
If you knew that then you would fail

If that's the case then I'm the most successful person in this place
If that's the case then I feel love forever and I never hate
That's the toll that it takes, I believe some backwards shit
I'm phony and I'm fucking fake, I'm more than just a piece of shit

So if you talking down on me you better do it right
Tell me I'm the fucking worst person you met in all ya life
Open up the flood gates of hate and let me drown slow
I'm a sad piece of trash, I'm so down low

Imma fuck it all up again, I'm going back where I been
But fuck it is what it is, so I'm not gonna pretend
I know I'm not who I could be now
But I don't know if that's any good right now

Leave me alone, I know I'm a burden
I just wanna go under where the dirt is
I don't wanna know what I did to deserve this
Imma give myself a reason for it