The Contractor

I made
Heavy what was light
Was looking for a fight
To give creedence to my crimes

I miss you
The boys and my friends
Sierra Nevada winds
And ponderosa pines

Now debt
Holds me like regret
Keeps me from moving yet
Still I find dumb things to buy

Every time
You'd make a desperate pitch
You said in love we were rich
We were laughing and crying

Sure being alone is fine
But I can't cross that bridge when I arrive
After the years that passed on by
Do I cross your mind?
Do I cross your mind?
Do I ever cross your mind?

Three
Weeks of living clean
But what he really means
Is not one knows he's using

I was
A skeleton crew
Did the least I could do
To keep the vessel floating

I have this problem quirk
I always have to work
Or else it's you I see

One day
My breath will join the wind
I'll cease to have been
'Cept in what I build and bury

Do I ever cross your mind?