Beautiful, but Bleak

And I feel like I was broken
That day back in October
When you said you didn't love me
But you couldn't explain why

And maybe it'll change
But maybe I won't
It's time to live faster
But still die slow
But still young
Oh how I wish to die young
Oh how I wish to die young

And once again it's 2am
Unable to fall asleep
I slept until 2pm again
Because I couldn't face this week

The wind is howling at the window
It's beautiful but bleak
And maybe that's all
it was ever meant to be

I can no longer see
And I can barely speak
The words get stuck more than usual
And I am far too weak
to finish any sentence
Or write any more words
When no one wants to listen
When I am never heard

And once again it's 2am
Unable to fall asleep
I slept until 2pm again
Because I couldn't face this week

The wind is howling at the window
It's beautiful but bleak
And maybe that's all
it was ever meant to be
Maybe that's all we were ever meant to be
Maybe that all I was ever meant to be
Not beautiful but bleak