Wish I Could Cry

[00:00.08] Built a fortress trading memories for always feeling empty
[00:03.81] Lost purpose running from my pain
[00:07.04] I made a prison shining trauma and never found nirvana
[00:10.62] Sold cyanide for novocaine
[00:13.41] I've learned that there is no healing in not feeling anything
[00:17.76] I'm just a cage of skin that threw away the key
[00:21.26] To fall apart right now, that'd feel like ecstasy but
[00:24.95] These walls weren't built to break
[00:27.11] I really wish that I could cry right now
[00:30.37] I really wish that I could let this out
[00:33.32] Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead
[00:38.09] I'm too good at holding them down
[00:40.54] I really wish that I could cry right now
[00:43.52] But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how
[00:47.37] Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known
[00:51.19] But the silence is making me drown
[00:54.60] I really wish that I could cry
[00:58.01] I really wish that I could cry
[01:02.02] I've had to wear a thousand faces, be fake to just replace this
[01:05.62] Panic that my past holds tight
[01:08.50] Now every feeling's lost it's flavor 'cause I feel so much safer
[01:12.09] As frozen than in fight or flight
[01:15.66] I've learned that I'd rather suffer, I would rather agonize
[01:19.86] Than lose the little things just for the alibi
[01:23.04] That taste of tender love is worth a sacrifice
[01:26.41] I'm living, not alive
[01:28.57] I really wish that I could cry right now
[01:31.91] I really wish that I could let this out
[01:36.12] Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead
[01:39.54] I'm too good at holding them down
[01:42.24] I really wish that I could cry right now
[01:45.41] But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how
[01:49.35] Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known
[01:53.08] But the silence is making me drown
[01:57.63] My life is full of love but I'm empty
[02:01.16] 'Cause I've been so afraid of remembering
[02:04.15] I just want to break down
[02:05.89] I'm ready
[02:07.02] So let me please
[02:10.96] I really wish that I could cry right now
[02:14.67] I really wish that I could let this out (let this out)
[02:17.96] Million thoughts in my head and they all want me dead
[02:22.36] I'm too good at holding them down
[02:24.80] I really wish that I could cry right now (cry right now)
[02:28.17] But I'm afraid that I've forgotten how (forgotten how)
[02:31.83] Being numb's how I cope with the hell that I've known
[02:35.70] But the silence is making me drown
[02:38.87] I really wish that I could cry
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