i don't know if you hate or love me

Is it raining outside
Or am I melting
Is someone tricking my eyes
I feel like smoking
Everyday is just the same old bullshit on repeat
And I don't know if this is something I can keep
Up on everything
If I try my hardest
And god knows I've tried my hardest

This must be some fucked up daydream
I'm lost out here and I can't trust what I see
I don't know who I am or who I wanna be
And I don't know if you hate me or love me

Feel fucking nauseous everyday
Don't know when it will go away
Maybe I'll finally feel at home
When I can call this life my own
This song is just the same damn bullshit on repeat
But I won't stop singing it
Until you start listening
You start listening

This must be some fucked up daydream
I'm lost out here and I can't trust what I see
I don't know who I am or who I wanna be
And I don't know if you hate me or love me