Going Through Changes (Album Version (Edited))

[00:05.22] I'm going through changes
[00:13.66] I'm going through changes
[00:20.13] Lately, I really feel like I'm rollin' for delf like Philly
[00:24.17] Feel like I'm losing control of myself
[00:26.08] I sincerely apologize if all that I sound like
[00:29.49] Is I'm complainin', but life keeps on complicatin' and
[00:32.08] I'm debatin' on leavin' this world this evenin'
[00:34.92] Even my girls can see I'm grievin'
[00:36.92] I try and hide it but I can't
[00:38.27] Why do I act like I'm all high and mighty
[00:40.26] When inside I'm dyin'? I am finally realizin' I need
[00:43.23] Help, can't do it myself, too weak
[00:45.83] Two weeks, I've been havin' ups and downs
[00:47.74] Goin' through peaks and valleys
[00:49.27] Dilly-dallyin' 'round with the idea
[00:51.39] Of endin' this shit right here
[00:53.46] I'm hatin' my reflection
[00:55.03] I walk around the house tryna fight mirrors
[00:57.22] I can't stand what I look like, yeah
[00:59.30] I look fat, but what do I care? I give a fuck
[01:02.20] Only thing I fear's Hailie
[01:03.91] I'm afraid if I close my eyes
[01:05.54] That I might see her, shit
[01:07.00] I'm going through changes
[01:14.70] I'm going through changes
[01:21.21] I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin' at noon
[01:24.93] Yeah, dad's in a bad mood, he's always snappin' at you
[01:27.63] Marshall, what happened that you can't stop with these pills?
[01:30.26] And you've fallen off with your skills and your own fans are laughin' at you
[01:33.17] It become a problem you're too pussy to tackle? Get up
[01:36.08] Be a man, stand, a real man woulda had this shit handled
[01:39.08] Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed
[01:41.08] They say Proof just flipped out, homie just whipped out and bust
[01:43.77] Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that
[01:45.82] He wouldn't fuckin' shoot at nobody, he'd fight first
[01:48.75] But dwellin' on it only makes the night worse
[01:50.83] Now I'm poppin' Vics, Percs and Methadone pills
[01:53.46] "Yeah, Em, tight verse, you killed it"
[01:55.72] Fuckin' drug dealers hangin' 'round me like yes men
[01:58.31] And they gon' do whatever I says when I says it
[02:01.03] It's in their best interest to protect their investment
[02:04.20] And I just lost my fuckin' best friend, so fuck it, I guess then
[02:07.51] (I'm going through changes)
[02:14.86] Don't know what I'm gonna do (I'm going through changes)
[02:16.86] But I just keep on going through changes
[02:23.00] My friends can't understand this new me, that's understandable
[02:25.45] Man, but think how bananas you'd be, you'd be an animal too
[02:28.69] If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo
[02:31.73] And everybody's lookin' at you, what you want me to do?
[02:34.45] I'm startin' to live like a recluse
[02:36.33] And the truth is, fame's startin' to give me an excuse
[02:39.11] To be at a all-time low, I sit alone in my home theater
[02:42.77] Watchin' the same damn DVD of the first tour
[02:45.65] The last tour he was still alive
[02:47.66] And it hurts so I fast forward, sleeping pills'll make me feel alright
[02:51.12] And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night
[02:53.51] I'll just take a couple more, yeah, you're motherfuckin' right
[02:56.33] I ain't slowin' down for no one, I am almost homeward bound
[02:59.06] Almost in a coma, yeah, homie, come on, dole 'em out
[03:01.90] "Daddy, don't you die on me, Daddy, better hold your ground"
[03:04.54] Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice? Yeah, baby, hold me down (daddy)
[03:08.23] (I'm going through changes)
[03:14.20] (Daddy)
[03:15.29] Don't know what I'm gonna do (I'm going through changes)
[03:18.28] But I just keep on going through changes
[03:24.55] Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes
[03:26.30] But somehow I'm pullin' through
[03:27.70] Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof
[03:29.63] I'ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few facts
[03:32.85] 'Cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth
[03:35.21] Shit, it just hit me that what if I would not've made it through?
[03:38.06] I think about the things I woulda never got to say to you
[03:40.70] I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do
[03:43.52] Hailie, this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too
[03:46.32] I still love your mother, that'll never change
[03:48.52] Think about her every day
[03:49.85] We just could never get it together, hey
[03:52.05] Wish there was a better way for me to say it
[03:54.34] But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for her on any day
[03:57.52] There are just too many things to explain, when it rains
[04:00.23] Guess it pours, yes, it does, wish there wasn't any pain
[04:03.12] But I can't pretend there ain't, I ain't placin' any blame
[04:05.88] I ain't pointin' fingers, Heaven knows I never been a saint
[04:08.77] I know that it feels like we just pissed away our history
[04:11.19] And just today I looked at your picture, almost if to say
[04:14.20] I miss you subconsciously, wish it didn't end this way
[04:17.11] But I just had to get away, don't know why
[04:19.14] I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm
[04:20.80] (I'm going through changes)
[04:28.47] Don't know what I'm gonna do (I'm going through changes)
[04:30.90] But I just keep on going through changes