Lifelong Dying

Yet another glass in front of me
Filthy, half empty, my twisted way
To enjoyable self-destruction

Yet another dawn
That I don't want to see
Sore I wake, torn wide open
Deep in the ever growing sea
Slowly drowning in poisonous tears

What the hell am I doing here?
Driven by excruciating guilt
Worthless, running in circles
Sacrificed too much for solace

All the time just numbing myself
From the pain
Still every day dying a little
I wither slowly
I wither slowly

Longing for years
That were once never lived
I've come too far
To turn back now

Nothing can be undone
My heart sank deep
In this lightless tide
I wither slowly