Empty Nesting Doll

I'm sorry I never told you I cared
I didn't think it meant much
I never was aware
The house you built
It was too much of a home
The guilt is harder to stomach once we're old and alone
Comfort is too much of an ask
When digging up regret from the past
A joyous occasion overshadowed with grief
Peel back the pain and find a sense of relief

Cut me open hear me out
Bleed me dry of the useless doubt
I've grown lines on my face
Missing you- a road I thought I'd never take

At no fault but my own
I thought I'd finally grown
Past the petty bullshit
But now I think I'm losing it

The photos pile up high
Wish we had more time to ask why?
Now I try to make sense
It's unfortunate but it's a part of life

At no fault but my own
I thought I'd finally grown
Past the petty bullshit
I'm losing it

It might be time to shut my fucking mouth
No one listens
No one listens to me

If I may make a suggestion
Stop asking all these useless questions
I can't help but feel this way
A heaviness I've never known- I'll be ok
Internalize, rationalize- any means to make it through the day