Popular Monster

[00:02.86] Yeah
[00:05.97] I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
[00:08.46] I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway
[00:11.46] Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
[00:14.40] I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah
[00:17.57] I battle with depression, but the question still remains
[00:20.63] Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?
[00:23.60] And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
[00:26.67] Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay, okay?
[00:29.45] Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day
[00:31.92] And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
[00:34.80] It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
[00:39.45] 'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out
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[00:46.31] I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
[00:50.17] I'm a popular, popular monster
[00:52.51] I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
[01:01.36] I'm a popular, popular monster
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[01:09.98] I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
[01:13.30] Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace
[01:15.47] I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace
[01:18.50] How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?
[01:21.34] Oh my God, I keep on stressing, every second that I waste
[01:24.51] Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
[01:27.31] But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
[01:30.38] Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay, okay
[01:33.30] Motherfucker, now you got my attention
[01:35.85] I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing
[01:38.75] And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine
[01:41.85] Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave, I am terrified
[01:45.05] I fell asleep at the wheel again
[01:48.08] Crashed my car just to feel again
[01:50.62] It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me
[01:54.72] 'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out
[02:01.63] I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
[02:06.08] I'm a popular, popular monster
[02:07.93] I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
[02:14.91] I'm a popular, popular fucking monster
[02:19.72] Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh
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[02:31.24] We're sick and tired of wondering
[02:34.48] Praying to a god that you don't believe
[02:37.17] We're searching for the truth in the lost and found
[02:40.15] So the question I ask is
[02:42.30] Oh, where the fuck is your god now?
[02:46.23] 'Cause I'm about to break down, I'm searching for a way out
[03:01.27] I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
[03:05.26] I'm a popular, popular monster
[03:07.55] I break down, falling into love now with falling apart
[03:11.93] I'm not a popular, popular monster
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[03:24.85] I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer
[03:27.74] I'm a popular, popular monster
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