VIII: Being

I am standing on the ashes of the fight I have lost
In the puddles of blood I spilled for my own path
They show my reflection I haven't seen for so long
The reflection of what I never
wanted to see, never wanted to fight for

The sunlight fades and leaves before my eyes
As I accept the demon who has been fighting for my flesh and soul
The lightning strikes as it breaks my heart into pieces of ice
And I know that this must go on until the very end of mine

Oh Alastor, you vanquished me after all
I saw you coming but never realized the consequence
Oh demon, where are you going to lead me now?
I am all yours, all yours and without sight

And so, I became Alastor himself
As my reflection showed that I had already changed
No love can save me, no words can make it go
Just leave and let me face it alone

Am I still here breathing this poisoned air?
Am I still me, rotting together with this world?
Now every light seems misleading
Now every hope turns to be false

Obsession is the only sign of life
And the reason why I run and hide
I don't see myself in this world outside
I do not see myself at all

I went where no one can follow me
And so I fade here in a place that no one sees
As the fiend takes over
As the fiend speaks for me

I went where no one can follow me
And now I'm aware of what I must expect
As I it takes me to the edge of my life
As it takes me down