Awake in Fright

I welcome every thought
With every heavy breath
Deprived of life and warmth
Can't help myself within this inward war of thought
The search for hope alone has slowly lost its purpose
Perception worthless
No pity for myself
And I see all of me sinking in myself
Decay and disbelief
Self constructed burning hell
No soul to enter
The walls are sealed forever
Walk alone awake in fright
I see solutions of violent ill nature
I see me pulling myself through the pain
I see escape in a cycle of hatred
I see the end of the line for myself