(4Am) Loops

After all this pain ive endured
I still suffer this abuse
Now i just feed your destruction
And watch at your amuse
From this cancer that eats away at me
I guess it's no surprise
Im a corpse in disguise
With no where to hide
With nothing to gain, i receive all the pain
I search for my way to make things okay
Just obstacles that tie the same
I could try to survive this game
Who are you to lie
Who are you to hide behind that high
Of your self obsessed mind
Im not weak, im not afraid, im not scared
I could try to make things okay
But id have to go away im scared to release
Im scared of beneath
Im scared of you and im scared of we
I make moments into time and
You make time into misery
How can i wake up from this bad
Dream one without you or me