It's Hard To Tell The Difference When You're Afraid Of Literally Everything

It's fairly unlike me
No [?] to steer free
I'm not sure if I know
What I've done, what I'll become

I won't [?], thought clearly
Objective recently
With all my perspective
And still feel rejected

Sometimes I don't miss anyone
Sometimes I don't miss anyone

And when I close my eyes I see
There's no one standing here but me
And I don't feel safe
And I don't feel awake
What's my mistake?

Work hard
You're fine
Show up
Every time

If I stand alone I stand afraid
Not clear why it shows me
Of all the change I would've made
In terror, it froze me

And when I close my eyes I see
There's no one standing here but me
And I don't feel safe
And I don't feel awake

And when I close my eyes I see
There's no one standing here but me
And I don't feel safe
And I don't feel awake
What's my mistake?

Work hard
You're fine
Show up
Every time