Disappeared (Rearranged 2018)

I took some time to myself
To sort out all the things
That make me feel the way that I feel
Just this year I lost a basketball game to heaven
And I'm sure they're shooting jumpers
With Jesus, Mary, and Joseph
And said we wouldn't notice it
If you had disappeared
And I swore I got a phone call
So that seemed pretty weird

So caught up in my own head

Took a walk down my street
Thought I'd find something to eat
But I headed back Immediately
'Cause I'm pretty scared of guns
So go out and have fun, let loose
And I'll daydream about the noose that took my friend Seans life
And you thought we wouldn't notice it
If he had disappeared
But I swore I got a phone call
So that seemed pretty weird

So caught up in my own head

I let my hair down today
And I took a shower for the first time
In what felt like weeks

I felt my hair falling out
And I felt myself falling down
But that can't seem to be the reason
I can't sleep when I am alone
It's getting better
And it's hardly getting worse
It's hard to think about the things that make it all hurt

I found myself on the street
You swore that you would love me
And I swore I'd love you too
And you'll barely even notice it when I disappear