Ungrateful

[00:12.94] I don't wanna seem ungrateful God
[00:15.37] But I don't wanna be here
[00:16.93] I got some things to get off my chest
[00:18.26] But maybe it's best I keep it a secret
[00:20.42] 31st December, the first of Jan
[00:22.24] Same shit, I don't care 'bout the new year
[00:23.66] New house somewhere that ain't poverty driven
[00:25.67] It's mad in the place that I grew in
[00:26.39] Yo
[00:26.59] Served a pregnant lady, it fucked up my head
[00:28.23] Couple things I regret tryna earn a wage
[00:30.11] "48 Laws" one book that I read
[00:31.57] So if I repent can I turn the page?
[00:33.59] Gotta get rid of bad vibes
[00:35.07] Anti-clockwise gotta burn the sage, uh
[00:37.24] I'll say with it chest but I know some things locked in
[00:39.23] I prefer not to say
[00:40.19] I fucked up, I'm admittin' it
[00:41.56] I got no ego, I got no shame
[00:43.41] I swallow my pride and say that I'm missing it
[00:45.09] Creep in the changing room at school
[00:47.15] And teef from the kids that are privileged, uh
[00:48.93] Stolen clothes with a rip in it
[00:50.31] Also a stolen phone no SIM in it
[00:51.87] Now I got P's I give a lot back
[00:53.50] No charity work tryna write off tax
[00:55.26] Feds got me on a driving ban
[00:56.95] In the passenger seat 'til my license back, uh
[00:59.23] Ghost and fly off the map, uh
[01:00.87] Try get my mind off rap
[01:02.16] I get some sort of survivors guilt
[01:03.73] When I see YM's still supplyin' crack
[01:05.45] This life don't come with retiring plans
[01:07.12] It'll come to an end in unfortunate ways
[01:08.73] No such thing as positive thinkin'
[01:10.41] When you're locked in, it feel like a maze
[01:11.93] Often lose faith and forget to pray
[01:13.45] You don't wanna land on the wing with the guys
[01:15.19] Why? 'Cause they might melt your face
[01:16.94] Cuz got hit with a eight, why?
[01:18.67] Why would he care bout some extra days?
[01:20.27] I don't wanna seem ungrateful God
[01:21.79] But I don't wanna be here
[01:23.27] I got some things to get off my chest
[01:25.19] But maybe it's best I keep it a secret
[01:26.98] 31st December, the first of Jan
[01:28.93] Same shit I don't care 'bout the new year
[01:30.32] New house somewhere that ain't poverty driven
[01:32.20] It's mad in the place that I grew in
[01:33.75] Uh, I ain't been home in some weeks
[01:35.34] I seek when a man's in need
[01:37.06] I got a family tree to feed
[01:38.63] I see dead people in my sleep
[01:40.41] I see broke people on the feed
[01:42.01] Talk is cheap freedom of speech, I guess
[01:44.07] But they ain't even got no Ps
[01:45.36] Got free Wi-Fi they ain't got 4G
[01:47.19] Uh, I wouldn't be able to do what I do
[01:49.03] If it weren't for the man before me
[01:50.53] I show respect where it's due
[01:51.51] Where would I be? If I never met YB?
[01:53.82] Giggs, Ghetts, Chip, Skep, Konan, Krept
[01:56.44] Kane or Deb, Stormz, Huss, Dave
[01:58.53] A couple of names, even DBE
[02:00.03] Uh, my mum lost faith in her son when I left school with no GCSE's
[02:03.47] Told shorty, "Just 'cause I grew up with nothin' doesn't mean I'm easy to please"
[02:06.69] When you need a handout, you don't get help
[02:08.40] Why they all wanna help? I ain't even in need
[02:10.22] Had one score for an hour of studio time
[02:12.17] I couldn't even lease the beat
[02:13.65] Do not disturb me when I'm recordin'
[02:15.23] My voice sounds clearer than ever, uh
[02:17.47] Remember they might distortin'
[02:18.99] I grew in a different era
[02:20.51] More action, less talkin', he said I'm a dead man walkin'
[02:23.82] One in your head, there ain't no respawnin', alright
[02:27.00] I don't wanna seem ungrateful God
[02:28.97] But I don't wanna be here
[02:30.42] I got some things to get off my chest
[02:32.10] But maybe it's best I keep it a secret
[02:33.99] 31st December, the first of Jan
[02:35.90] Same shit I don't care 'bout the new year
[02:37.31] New house somewhere that ain't poverty driven
[02:39.21] It's mad in the place that I grew in