Roses in Place of Your Ashes

I'm falling asleep to the sight
Of fragmented recollections and headlights
Then the question rolls around
Could I have reached in to pull you out?
Like roses in place of your ashes
All that I know is that I'll never flourish now
A bouquet for your display

Wishful thinking gave its que
, like flowers in place of you

Maybe you should know
That I see your face in reflections wherever I go
And I was thinking you should know that
The thought of dying is traumatizing me

Just like roses in place of your ashes
All these shapes that defy your loss are never what I imagine

This is it, it's every bit as terrible as you expected
But even worse)

One moment's time just to rest your soul
Only god can judge you

One moment's time just to rest your soul
Now only god can judge you
Two halves of a whole
I'm torn in to pieces for you