When I Grow up

When I Grow Up
I Wanna Be A Magician
You Wanna See A Trick?
Pick A Card, Any Card Imma Close my eyes
Don't tell me what you get
It's A Jack Heart isn't it?
Thats Crazy I didn't Get It Wrong
This Morning I Was Watching A Tutorial
It was like 45 minutes long

When I grow up,
I'mma be richer than every player in the Lakers and Clippers
Twenty thousand people packed in a stadium
Staples Center,
I'm just painting a picture
Better life for my momma and sister
And every night,
we having lobster for dinner
And some ice cream cones
For all the nights we froze
And really I wish that my daddy could do it,
but that's the life he chose
Guess he ain't think his son would be worth it
Be he don't know how much he'll be hurting
But I know I won't cry no more
I don't even know,
sometimes I don't
Don't know if I'mma see your sunshine no more
But I don't know, I'm only 9 years old
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When I grow up,
I just want everyone to see that I believe in something
And if I leave the world,
I hope and pray to God that I'll be leaving something
I got a hole inside my heart,
I'm bleeding from it
Is there hope for me? Cuz I can't think of nothing
When I grow up,
I just want everyone to see that I completed something!
When I grow up,
I'm buying my momma a house
Cuz year after year,
they keep tossing us out
Tear after tear,
she be calling around
But my family can't keep helping all of us out
Too young to go get a job,
I got school in the fall,
but I feel I'm falling right now
My cousin just made like a thousand from kicking in houses
I'm trynna get down
Cuz only ones my age with it is the niggas in the streets
And I'm feeling like I'm living on a leash
Damn,
I done seen niggas go from a joe blow to a whole 20 in a week
What I can't do is sit and wait on everybody
cuz I know that they ain't giving it to me!
Plus every nigga around me getting to the money
I ain't finna be the only nigga bummy!
Where the packs at?
And the ziplocks? And the caps at?
I'mma get a bag when I bag that
Just front it to me,
I'mma get you that back
Do only do cash or cashapp?
Five months later,
they buying my dope
But watching me close,
so I gotta watch what I post
That's why I went bought a gun before I had bought me some clothes
Cuz they was gon' try get me gone at the perfect time
Momma just called me,
couldn't make words but I heard her crying

I called my sister to see what was wrong,

but her big head ass won't pick up the phone

I called my momma back and said,

"Can you please talk to me cuz I'm rushing home!"
She said,

"You the reason why they shot your lil sister

trynna be fucking grown!

They was looking for you,
I told them leave,
but they was pushing for you
Then your sister got mad and long story short,
she took a damn bullet for you!"
When I grow up?
I'mma be a magician cuz all them niggas disappearing
Not my lil sister,
ma is you serious?!
God, I'm bout to send you them niggas spirits
Feel like I'm the reason why she ain't here
I was only trynna stop from getting evicted
Feel like I ain't had no different decisions!
We was brought up in a difficult system
We ain't monsters,
we just miserable children
But I gotta make 'em feel how I'm feeling!
Shoot at all them niggas
Poom, poom, poom, poom, poom, poom, poom

Sound like I gotta go get a new engine

Tell the preacher I'll be a statistic

Tell the cops to come send me to prison

Every time I see them niggas I'm shooting and

I don't care what family member I'm hitting!

Then they shot me back, damn
Guess this how it's ending
They label us criminals
We just kids in a system
When I grow up,
I just want everyone to see that I believe in something
And if I leave the world,
I hope and pray to
God that I'll be leaving something
I got a hole inside my heart,
I'm bleeding from it
Is there hope for me? Cuz I can't think of nothing
When I grow up,
I just want everyone to see that I completed something!