Ten Toes Down
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Growing up I never thought that it would bother me
That I Didn't have a father, I figured he'd probably call
When he did, he just offered an apology and
Said he comin' home, you ain't have to lie to me
For seven years, I was just thinking hopefully
Seven years, man you'd never even spoke to me
I was nine what the fuck was I supposed to think
That's probably why I don't let anyone get close to me
'Cause they can up and leave with no answers
So my heart's cold I ain't taking no chances
Fuck a slow dance and fuck romances
This cold hard cash only thing I'll hold hands with
But you are the reason I believe in my purpose,
I had to make moves to prove to myself that I deserve this
Looking in the mirror like, ain't nobody perfect
But when your own dad don't want you it's easy to feel worthless
All I gotta say is thank god for my momma
If it wasn't for that woman I'd be
Caught up in the drama with my step dad
Still wish I knocked his fucking head back
Man I swear this shit gets bad
I was fourteen on my knees, looking under the sink
Picked up a bottle of bleach and nearly took a drink
I ain't know what I was doing
I just knew that I was scared
I was calling out to God but he ain't ever there and
Ain't nobody care fuck it, why should I
I should die close my eyes and see my momma cry
No, I can't do this to her
Around the same time I started making music for her
So please believe me when I say it gets better
I know you fed up but you gotta keep your head up
They push you down, get up
Don't you ever settle, because it ain't gonna be like this forever
And I don't know if I could have took it much longer than that
But God only put me through that because I was stronger than that
Yeah I've always been a soldier, thank my momma for that
And you going to be all right too, Lord i promise you that
But I am no reverend and I ain't here to lecture
I just know what it's like to be
Living under pressure, living with depression
Not knowing which direction to go
Man you just got to trust your soul
I know what it's like to be living in
Society when everything you try to be
Gets blocked by anxiety, everybody telling you this shit is
Illogical and improbable
Fuck them show them that it's possible
Like who the fuck you talking to
Broke through every obstacle, had to do
Everything that they told us not to do
Look, you in control of what happen next
You in control of your happiness, don't forget
That I Didn't have a father, I figured he'd probably call
When he did, he just offered an apology and
Said he comin' home, you ain't have to lie to me
For seven years, I was just thinking hopefully
Seven years, man you'd never even spoke to me
I was nine what the fuck was I supposed to think
That's probably why I don't let anyone get close to me
'Cause they can up and leave with no answers
So my heart's cold I ain't taking no chances
Fuck a slow dance and fuck romances
This cold hard cash only thing I'll hold hands with
But you are the reason I believe in my purpose,
I had to make moves to prove to myself that I deserve this
Looking in the mirror like, ain't nobody perfect
But when your own dad don't want you it's easy to feel worthless
All I gotta say is thank god for my momma
If it wasn't for that woman I'd be
Caught up in the drama with my step dad
Still wish I knocked his fucking head back
Man I swear this shit gets bad
I was fourteen on my knees, looking under the sink
Picked up a bottle of bleach and nearly took a drink
I ain't know what I was doing
I just knew that I was scared
I was calling out to God but he ain't ever there and
Ain't nobody care fuck it, why should I
I should die close my eyes and see my momma cry
No, I can't do this to her
Around the same time I started making music for her
So please believe me when I say it gets better
I know you fed up but you gotta keep your head up
They push you down, get up
Don't you ever settle, because it ain't gonna be like this forever
And I don't know if I could have took it much longer than that
But God only put me through that because I was stronger than that
Yeah I've always been a soldier, thank my momma for that
And you going to be all right too, Lord i promise you that
But I am no reverend and I ain't here to lecture
I just know what it's like to be
Living under pressure, living with depression
Not knowing which direction to go
Man you just got to trust your soul
I know what it's like to be living in
Society when everything you try to be
Gets blocked by anxiety, everybody telling you this shit is
Illogical and improbable
Fuck them show them that it's possible
Like who the fuck you talking to
Broke through every obstacle, had to do
Everything that they told us not to do
Look, you in control of what happen next
You in control of your happiness, don't forget