this isnt a cry for help

This song aint a cry for help
Its just to let you know that i hate myself
Its like everyday im in the same old hell
My minds cracked i dont feel so well
Its like everyday i lose myself
You always say itll be ok
But i never thought it would be this way
Ive lost touch with reality
Id understand if you're mad at me
Just want you to be happy
Even though its really hard for me
Ive, lost sight of what i used to see
Im not the person i wanna be
Know deep down im my enemy
And i get knocked down when im battling
Depressions not as weak as me

Im not okay im struggling
Need to be alone but its hard to be
When the voices in my head all yell at me
Its like every seconds a waste on me
When im so messed up i cant even think
I dont wanna move, i dont wanna blink
Why do i even try to breathe?
When the air is just a waste on me
Im not okay im struggling
Need to be alone but its hard to be
When the voices in my head all yell at me
Its like every seconds a waste on me
When im so messed up i cant even think
I dont wanna move, i dont wanna blink
Why do i even try to breathe?
When the air is just a waste on me

Why do i even try to breathe
Why do i even try to breathe
Why do i even try to breathe
Why do i even try to breathe

I know you think you know me well
But you've never seen inside my shell
You dont, really know how far i fell
When i landed face first inside my hell
I thought everything was going well
But, i lost what i thought would help
Who was i even supposed to tell?
I mean im the one that should know myself
Its like everyday im in the same old hell
Ive lost hope and ive lost myself
I just need to be all by myself
I dont wanna hurt the ones who help
I just need to work on my own health
And this song aint a cry for help
I just need a while to myself
Need a while to myself