spit swap

We swapped spit, not in the way I wanted
And I don't know what I want If I'm really being honest

Maybe it's nothing
Maybe it's nobody
Maybe the wanting Is all that I really need

Always Pursuing a pretty impossible
Cause when shit is possible theres a chance of succeeding

Maybe I did it all wrong
Am I who I'm supposed to be
I've started doubting it
You've started asking me

When will you find the right word?
That last one you'll ever need
And I don't think there's a word that means everything and nothing

Do I just pull pranks on myself?
Trick my subconscious mind Into dreams of a different life
Am I supposed to be someone else?