I Can't Change My Life

[00:01.16] Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah-
[00:12.84] Staring at my life, there's so much yet to be done
[00:15.89] The finish line is in sight, but weak and weary, I run
[00:19.24] I'm tired, change is evident, heaven sent me His son
[00:22.21] So I'm hired to be medicine, help me give to just one
[00:26.09] Mama use to always say I'm living life on life's terms
[00:29.95] I struggle with tight turns
[00:31.52] Your mother will fight first
[00:33.02] In trouble my pipe burst
[00:34.94] I'm cussing with fighting words
[00:36.48] I'm nothing but Christ heard
[00:38.14] The rumblings of my hurts
[00:39.69] Still, I made it (the single mother's only child)
[00:42.94] She's in heaven now, but she told me
[00:44.74] "Son, you better hold it down"
[00:45.99] Yes ma'am, but I'm hurting
[00:47.79] Coach is screaming, "Walk it off"
[00:48.95] It's lighting coach (call it off)
[00:50.64] Keep writing coach? Oh, yeah, flaws and all
[00:52.01] Oh, I'm here, hoping the food l'm feeding leaves you full
[00:55.43] A flawed cook trying to follow the recipe to the book
[00:58.76] Don't deviate, don't add more
[01:00.25] Don't take away my past songs
[01:01.95] Will pave the way for dad's songs
[01:03.60] I praise by faith I last long (I can't change my life)
[01:07.36] I'll be the death of me, yeah
[01:11.00] I can't change my life
[01:13.89] Without you helping me (I can't change my life)
[01:17.37] I can't change my life
[01:20.39] I'll be the death of me, yeah
[01:24.37] I can't change my life (I can't change my life)
[01:27.02] Without you helping me (I can't change my life)
[01:28.62] Without you helping me, yeah
[01:32.07] Drinking from broken cisterns
[01:33.16] My hope is some will listen
[01:34.94] I spoke only what was given
[01:36.36] And wrote only what was written
[01:37.81] Walking roads that I came for
[01:39.66] Every step was so painful
[01:41.38] Weather beaten with no raincoat
[01:42.76] My past is so shameful
[01:44.55] (I struggle) with discouragement
[01:46.33] I struggle with my anger
[01:47.74] Lord, I struggle with my doubt
[01:49.30] Hoping I'm making Jesus famous
[01:51.08] I struggle with this gluttony
[01:52.74] I struggle with "I don't know"
[01:54.69] I struggle with "what if the world don't feel this song?"
[01:57.83] Father, help me to believe that
[01:59.78] After all my disappointments
[02:01.11] I'm called and still appointed
[02:02.76] To walk in this anointing Father
[02:05.15] Hope differed has made my heart sick
[02:07.46] Is there a balm in Gilead for the faith that I walk with?
[02:10.63] I stand burdened behind the curtains, uncertain that
[02:13.66] I'm the person you really want
[02:15.13] Hear the thoughts insecurities haunt
[02:17.32] It's the man inside the mirror
[02:19.04] (Yeah) man behind the mirror
[02:20.91] Bare soul to my Father who's drawn near to my confessions
[02:23.10] I can't change my life (hey)
[02:26.21] I'll be the death of me, yeah
[02:29.52] I can't change my life
[02:32.43] Without you helping me (I can't change my life)
[02:36.79] I can't change my life
[02:39.38] I'll be the death of me, yeah
[02:42.87] I can't change my life (I can't change my life)
[02:45.75] Without you helping (without you helping me, yeah)
[02:47.70] I can't change my life
[02:50.63] Face to face with failure
[02:51.84] Sleeping with guilt many nights
[02:53.86] Grieving as disobedience leaves me screaming
[02:55.99] "I can't change my life"
[02:57.18] Haunted by time wasted
[02:58.50] Did stay in the club too long?
[03:00.39] Hurting the people, hurting waiting on my songs
[03:02.76] I can't change my life
[03:03.94] A painful childhood scarred by Mom's tear filled nights
[03:07.09] Born bearing her burdens, still hurting
[03:09.09] But (I can't change my life)
[03:10.33] All the bridges I burned
[03:11.90] Are still on fire in my rearview
[03:13.56] People I was near to and dear to
[03:15.89] I can't change my life
[03:17.07] Father forgive me
[03:17.99] I'm blood washed and sanctified
[03:20.14] But would the church kick me out
[03:21.60] If they knew I still cuss at time?
[03:23.41] What would they think? What would they say
[03:25.29] And what would they write?
[03:26.51] My flaws are amplified father 'cause You gave me a mic
[03:29.82] Judged by hypocrites breaking their own word daily
[03:33.10] Doing what they never say, Lord, this world gone crazy!
[03:35.93] Father save me from myself
[03:37.95] I'm not built to do life without you
[03:39.90] Extend mercy and grace
[03:41.32] When the times I fight and doubt you, Father
[03:43.42] Father, I'm sincerely yours and yours alone
[03:46.15] You're the author and finisher of my life's song
[03:49.12] Help me, with me
[03:50.76] Use every tear and heartbreak
[03:52.40] As fuel to change this world
[03:54.09] 'Cause only pain can make a pearl
[03:56.25] I'm a flawed clay vessel
[03:58.18] Living on the potters wheel
[03:59.79] Made over to be made over again
[04:01.35] And I'm sealed by tears and
[04:02.94] Use my flaws as a way to show me mercy and grace
[04:05.94] Never let me get comfortable with them
[04:07.84] But with them, I'll seek your face
[04:09.54] My hope in glory
[04:10.98] Is that You wrote this true story
[04:12.74] Father go before me
[04:14.11] I'm copyrights of what you recorded
[04:15.97] Use my worse regrets
[04:17.33] My most shameful moments
[04:18.92] My hurts tears and sweat
[04:20.64] My most painful moments
[04:22.36] As fuel to my fire
[04:23.67] So I can blaze a new path
[04:25.79] I'm laying the truth bare
[04:27.38] And paying my dues fair
[04:29.02] The cobblestone streets of rocks
[04:30.92] That rolled under my feet are gone
[04:32.88] In me do a new thing
[04:34.48] And write a new song
[04:34.50] I can't change my life
[04:37.50] I'll be the death of me, yeah
[04:41.26] I can't change my life
[04:43.93] Without you helping me, yeah (I can't change my life)
[04:47.96] I can't change my life
[04:50.72] I'll be the death of me, yeah
[04:54.45] I can't change my life (I can't change my life)
[04:57.45] Without you helping (without you helping me, yeah)
[04:59.88] I can't change my life
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