Pretend My Pain Away

[00:01.03] Tell my mother, tell my father
[00:06.06] I'm so sorry I was never good enough
[00:12.75] In your eyes I know I'll always be a monster
[00:19.25] Like who I am made me impossible to love
[00:25.80] When I just needed empathy
[00:29.16] You buried me in so much shame
[00:32.50] I won't apologize for who I am
[00:36.49] No, not for one more day
[00:40.66] I can't pretend my pain away
[00:44.08] I can't outrun the pouring rain
[00:47.67] In my head, in my head
[00:50.82] It's like I'm hiding a hurricane
[00:54.02] I can't pretend my pain away
[00:57.27] Judge me for what I cannot change
[01:00.66] When I'm dead, when I'm dead
[01:04.05] You're gonna wish you believed
[01:07.56] You make me feel like such a burden
[01:12.61] Like my sickness is my fault, can't take this shame
[01:19.26] I wish that you could see my pain just like a cancer
[01:25.78] I'd be your hero, not a liar like you say
[01:33.86] I can't pretend my pain away
[01:37.35] I can't outrun the pouring rain
[01:40.93] In my head, in my head
[01:43.94] It's like I'm hiding a hurricane
[01:47.60] I can't pretend my pain away
[01:50.68] Judge me for what I cannot change
[01:53.94] When I'm dead, when I'm dead
[01:57.49] You're gonna wish you believed
[02:00.33] When I needed to be loved
[02:03.48] You were the jury and the judge
[02:07.41] Refused to understand
[02:10.76] It messed me up so bad
[02:13.46] The more you tried the less you helped
[02:16.86] It only made me hate myself
[02:20.63] Can't stand one second more
[02:24.05] In the home you never were
[02:27.23] I can't pretend my pain away
[02:30.72] I can't outrun the pouring rain
[02:34.14] In my head, in my head
[02:37.30] It's like I'm hiding a hurricane
[02:40.81] I can't pretend my pain away
[02:44.01] Judge me for what I cannot change
[02:47.42] I'm not dead, no, not yet
[02:50.63] I'm begging you to believe me
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