saw ur mom at the grocery store

I saw your mom at the grocery store
She texted me afterwords
I felt like falling to the floor
She said miss you hope you’re doing good I wish we saw you more And I knew that was a lie
Cus you haven’t talked to me in at least 6 months
I thought that I was healed but now I’m open like a cut Cus I saw your mom at the grocery store
And she asked me how I was
I should have told her the truth
That I don’t know who I am after you
That I can’t stand looking at that fucking pair of shoes I used to wear with you
Or the pictures that I framed of you
Oh I feel like I’m split in two
But I asked about your sister
Instead
Cus that’s what nice girls do
Driving home the roads all look the same to me
I pass your house and block out all the memories
And I don’t miss you I don’t wish you well
I wish you felt what I had felt
She has your eyes she looks like you
I should have told her the truth
That I don’t know who I am after you
That I can’t stand looking at that fucking pair of shoes I used to wear with you
Or the pictures that I framed of you
Oh I feel like I’m split in two
I should have let her know
That I deleted all the playlists in my phone
Cus everytime that song plays I just wanna call you So I meditate now
But the silence is almost just as loud oooh
I feel like I’m split in two
But I asked about your sister
Oh I asked about your sister
I should have told her the truth I’ve been terrified for months of seeing You
Every white car makes my heart stop I cut my hair I meditate
Did everything but change my name Oh I
I’ll never be the
Same