i wish i could but my mom would kill me (Cut)

When was the last time since you smiled like this?
Cause I know for me that it's been a bit
And I was always told ignorance is bliss
Now that I'm getting older I'm just scared of it
And I
Would it be red if I dye it like this?
Cause I haven't smiled this way since I was a kid
How's your mom? I hope she's doing great
How's your dad? I hope he's just okay
You said he'd never like me, well, that's surprising
Although not unlikely, I'm just not exciting at all
At all, at all, at all
(Ready one, two, three, four)
Just a little too much, just a little too late
Couple close plans didn't go my way
Couple old friends but they say I've changed
'Cause things were different, didn't know your name
If things were different, I'll blow my brains
Mama, I miss you, so find a place
A bottle of whiskey and a girl who hates
Everything that I can't change
From how I talk to what I say
And we'll grow distant over all this pain
And I'm gon' miss you, but I ran away
So far away, so far away, so far away, so far away, so far away
It's all the same, it's all the same, it's all the same, it's all the—
Same
Just a little too much, just a little too late
Couple close plans didn't go my way
Couple old friends but they say I've changed
'Cause things were different, didn't know your name
If things were different, I'll blow my brains
Mama, I miss you, so find a place
A bottle of whiskey and a girl who hates
Everything that I can't change
From how I talk to what I say
And we'll grow distant over all this pain
And I'm gon' miss you, but I ran away
So far away, so far away, so far away, so far away, so far away
It's all the same, it's all the same, it's all the same, it's all the—
Same