Disposable Girl (feat. Eleanor Forte)

Messages never read by you
Never being acknowledged, but it's nothing new
I'm the saddest actor standing in the background
Oversized hoodie, walking by with my head down

Shitty hair 'cause I didn't get to sleep
I just wanna be alive but I feel like such a creep
Wanna be such a pretty girl that everybody loves me
But I can't shake the feeling that everyone's above me

I know it's not a healthy way to feel
But to be mistreated would at least mean I'm real
When they look up your skirt
When they look you up and down
That at least means you're someone that they wanna be around
(Uh-Oh)
D-I-S-P-O-S-A-B-L-E
That's all I'll ever be
D-I-S-P-O-S-A-B-L-E
That's me
That's me
That's me

All the pretty girls make it look so easy
All the pretty girls make me not wanna be me
So what is it? my face or my body?
What is it that makes you people never want me?

Swear to god, all I've done is my best
But I always get treated like I'm different from the rest
I get pushed, I get pulled, 'till there's nothing left at all
And the people who do it make me feel like it's my fault

I know it's not a healthy way to feel
But to be mistreated would at least mean I'm real
They don't look up my skirt
They just laugh at what I do
You complain about the stares
But I'd kill to be you
(Uh-Oh)
D-I-S-P-O-S-A-B-L-E
That's all I'll ever be
D-I-S-P-O-S-A-B-L-E
That's me
That's me
That's

I feel so unclean
I feel the evil in me
I try so hard to be good
To be someone worth seeing
But all the names I get called
The way they treat me
Don't try to lie to me and tell me I'm not ugly

I want to hate them
I really fucking do
But if you were in my place
You would hate yourself too

What to do when the world
Feels like it's only been against me
When everybody that I've loved
Has only up and left me

I know it's not a healthy way to feel
But to be mistreated would at least mean I'm real
When they look up your skirt
When they look you up and down
That at least means you're someone that they wanna be around
(Uh-Oh)

I know it's not a healthy way to feel
But to be mistreated would at least mean I'm real
They don't look up my skirt
They just laugh at what I do
You complain about the stares
But I'd kill to be you
(Uh-Oh)
D-I-S-P-O-S-A-B-L-E
That's all I'll ever be
D-I-S-P-O-S-A-B-L-E
That's me
That's me
That's me

D-I-S-P-O-S-A-B-L-E
That's all I'll ever be
D-I-S-P-O-S-A-B-L-E
That's me
That's me
That's