State of Mind

I been, I been stressing gotta get this off my chest it's a
Lonely road when you tryna be the best
Waking up, in a mood
Got this feeling in my chest
Can't choke, anxiety
Got me grabbing at my neck, I'm just

Hoping that my next move is my best one
Made a record last night, need the next one
Hoping that I'm still me, when I'm next up
Hoping that my new thang, nothing like the ex one

To be honest, petty games getting old
And them fights take a toll, weighing heavy on the soul
This one hitting different, I ain't bleeding anymore
She be plugging all the holes, hopefully this time for real though

This the most that I been speaking I think all year
And yeah I know that I been talking but this song real
This, this what's really on my mind
I wish I could travel time
I ain't even tryna rhyme
I'm just going with it
Made this beat and now I'm flowing with it

Since a youing most things came with ease
Every test flying colors, guess this burden I was born with it
Warm hearted but I'm cold with it

I'm just saying what I witness, this ambition got a flip side
Looks great, but it's killing on the inside
I got visions, I got missions, I been itching
It all come from the ambition same time I'm glad to get by

Going with the flow but caught up in the riptide
I'm just tryna make some music fuck the money
But if you ain't got dough then most folks be acting funny, I guess
That that's the reason why I'm stressing tryna get mine

Even when it's going well I get in bad moods
I don't talk, I just say it with my black shoes
Wear my heart up on my sleeve like them tattoos
But I don't know if they can see it when you that dude

Fuck it, roll up imma smoke up on that gas too
Maybe light it when I'm cookin' up them rap blues
I might need a reset, grab a tab too
Man that shit be helping, wonder why they taboo

I just wanna see the world planetarium, but
When I take a look inside it's getting scary
By how much I mention shrooms you would think I'm a vegetarian, but
They be purging all the demons that I carry man

How come everybody gunning for the tip top
Everybody want a range and a wristwatch
I want em too, but I also tend to think lots
Who living life better, monks or the big shots?

If you looking for the answer, I don't know it but
I think em psychedelics help to show it
But when you tripping all this shit be seeming kinda stupid don't it?
Working for the future, happiness in present moments
All this shit has got me feeling like a hypocrite
Money don't mean jack, but I be chasing it
I just wanna set my fam up, so when they
Thinking about success, they ain't just longing for the taste of it

Hope that everybody sees where the greatness is
Leave the bitterness and trade it for the gratefulness
I'll admit that I'm the main one who's needing this
I'm on the right path, I just need the faithfulness

Fuck it, we gon' make it and well make a bag too
Just to show em that I did it, imma brag too
Cause imma do it making songs helping bad moods
We just tryna heal the world fuck the "cash rules"

I been living for my dreams, I hope the come true
When I'm tripping man the music what I come to
I just wanna be the one my baby run to
Live it up we gotta have a little fun too

I been living for my dreams, I hope the come true
When I'm tripping man the music what I come to
I just wanna be the one my baby run to
Live it up we gotta have a little fun too