Losing Everything

I'm not quite sure what's happening to me
But I can't seem to find a way out of bed
I seem hell-bent on losing most anything
Except for some sleep
And I don't know where to go
The meaning's lost on me
But I got nothing to do
Why leave?
When did I become so used to it?
Losing everything I came to be
Fading into the background once again
It's too much
(So just save it)
It's too much
You'd think I'd learn from past mistakes
And yet all this self-pity and doubt lingers, coiled in my head
I keep pushing the blame, hoping for anything
It's all just the same
Am I too eager to find another easy way out?
Am I losing my mind?
When did I become so used to it?
Losing everything I came to be
Fading into the background once again
I tell myself all the time
"What's lost can never be mine"
I wonder if it's forever
Well, I doubt it
It's too much (It's too much)
It's too much
Sometimes I feel paralyzed
By the weight of moments left behind
Sometimes I'm just plain terrified
Of the way they always pass me by